So far... Its okay.

Windows 7... So far so good the install was amazing. It was supper fast and easy.

Although there was one thing I got a BSOD (blue screen of death) I was sitting there downloading some network tools. ( I have been playing the idea of going down the network security path for my second career.) While i was downloading those tools i was watching my favorite Internet TV shows http://Revision3.com and i random got the BSOD.... no problems since so i am guessing it was just a fluke.

However, I am playing with the networking options... If you have never setup a network in your home before this is the best way to get one going. I really think its a great tool for the people with absolutely NO idea what they are doing. However i found it a bit watered down an well not as easy to change around for the more network savvy people.

One thing i found my self doing is using my programs in a windowed mode so that i can see the background changing every so often. I am using a CPU and memory clock and it is indeed using much less memory and CPU even with all the neato stuff behind. but there are some spikes on the CPU from 0% to 13% then to 26% back down to 0% so i am wonder what is causing this.

More coming soon. I am still in the first viewing phase. trying to get more in depth and really break it down. Soon i will really roll up the sleeves and open the hood and start ripping at the internals.

Emo be gone... techy stuff here we go!

So, I have stumbled upon the emo part of my life and i am sure there will be more shit like that. But I wanna go ahead and move past that and talk about two things. I might however, split this lovely little blog into two things... and those be the things we talks about today.... I love a game called Magic the gathering! and well i eat sleep dream this game... and the only thing that gets in the way is this world or technology that we all have love and use. so this is the first establishment of both.


Alright off into the tech world because its a bit shorter. In about oh say 45 min i am going to install and run a beta copy of the world people have grown to hate and love. Some back in my younger days used to laugh at its inablitly to be nothing more then just a point click go kind of thing. And if you havent cought on yet its called Windows. The great people at microsoft ( i am using this term loosly.) have graced us with a "better" version of windows Vista. I am currently running the bastard child of XP, ME, 2005 and so on a so forth... before i continue into what windows 7 is supposed to bring us i wanna give a litte background on the experience i have had with vista.

Vista.... well its pretty.... I think vista gave the pc users a nicer looking version of XP that sucks up RAM pretty nicely... I am running a duel core pentium with 1.75 clock speed and 2 gigs of ram with x1300 ati GPU. and this laptop is giving me a slight problem... that being.... the battery is not being recognized... its there and shows me a full charge when it take it out. I just havent had the time to troubleshoot it. so i just use it a very convienent desktop.

SO with vista... SLOW SLOW SLOW SLOW... First time running it i realized that it took for ever to shut its self down... well its later dawned on me... there is so much more extra crap being run in the background to make this OS look as though it does with the widgets and the side bar and all that jazz. What is it all for i dont know nore do i care or use them so i took it off. WHATS THIS more speed... well what else could i do to speed it up... well hell i stopped using the Areo setting all together and guess what... it looked like freaking XP all over again... so it worth paying big buck for the latest and greatest flop? no! does it come pre installed... yes.... It really makes me wanna cry... But you know what else is coming preinstalled these days... LINUX... yes that is right people living under a god damn rock... Dell, as of the last time i check, if offering a version of linux preinstalled like windows on the machine. GO GO GADET AWESOMENESS. However i opted to go the easy route and get point click work going. At the time i was an avid World of warcraft player and didnt know much to anything at all about how to make linux run the program.

I however, REGRET making this choice...

Moving on the the next topic. Win 7. do i like the speed at which they are throwing this at us... yes. on two levels. one its gets rid of vista with out haveing to go to ubuntu (vista unix flavored Imo!). Supposedly, they listened to the complaints fo the people and gave us what we want.... DO i belive? nope! can i be hopeful... you damn right i will. Windows 7 is supposed to have some pretty cool shit. like a touch screen feature... okay i said this and i think most of you the populus will as well... WHY!?!? oh why?

well hell it would be cool to just set up a box that is capable of doing this. do i think its nessisary to be packaged in... no... should it be a download from the site of an option you can turn on when installing YES!

and that segways me into my next topic on the OS. what i expect for the install.......

Well, Every install of Windows i have ever run i have had to go back in and shut off some of the USELESS crap given to me by the microsoft people... okay i get it 25% of users need that crap... WOOOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!! does everyone at home need to have a touchscreen option turned on just in the off chance the the softwear actually recoginzes and and can start using it right away... well no i dont think so.

So as i said before... Please make it more customize able by asking SIMPLE hardwear questions like.... Do you have a touch sensetive monitor? no, oh you dont need this piece of crap 10k lines of code... oh later on down the road you score your self a touch monitor... great plug and play download from site or CD and there you go 10 min later you can use it!

on the other hand what am i looking forward two.... MY RAM BACK!!! instead of using 80% of the systems ram 7 should use a mighty half or less of that...

A BETA! first time... sad its open and sad that its not a game but hey feed back and make it better is what i like. Being apart of the development.

Easier networking? hmm simple networks with xp is easy... now going from the XP maching on the the Vista maching was a but harder... it just wasnt a good set up of me... Not sure if that was OS faulted but i didnt like it.

what else to add... well nothing really... this is a rant more then information so take it with a grain of salt and tell me your ideas good bad inbetween ok? oh and wish me luck with the install...

Life... and infinite amout of fail!

Fail... Seems like all I can say about life right now... I work at a wal-mart... YEA GO 401K. Relationship is going to shit. Girlfriend doesn't care... and at this point i cant say that i do either.... we fight then we laugh and fight some more... I don't what to do anymore...

I will say this, however, I messed up... and if the person who reads knows deep inside there heart then let me follow up that by saying... I am sorry. I am so very sorry. I have wasted your life.

All I ever want to do is be something good for myself and maybe someone else... I am going to be 24 in about 2 months and i want nothing more then my own place where i can be me and not be held back by someone who need everything done there way... I am trying to set up my own home server... can't do it. It wont look good. I love snakes... favorite animal in the world... can't get one... won't let me. I dont blame her on the snake thing i really don't but it's something to bitch about. and well i am on a rant right now listening to the weepies. ( www.myspace.com/theweepies ) i cant think of one time where i would have been happy like this... if this is life post military then why in the world did i get out? life sucks. Its only sucking more. I have made more bad decisions then good ones and i cant stop the track that i am on. I want to be somewhere else. I want to be happy. and even though i didnt know it i was happy where i was. I had lots of friends that care and would help me at the drop of a hat! why did i ever give that up?


To joel and shivon
I am miss ya buddies! i couldnt bring it apon my self to invade in your life. I know you were there for me and would have been there for me when ever i asked. I thank you guys for all your kindness and i wanna say thank you.

To Joe...
I have no idea whats going through my head when i do things and i belive i owe you an appologie for the way i was the day before i left and to you and joel and shivon and shanna. the only true friends i have.

To kristy,
I miss you kitten... i wish things could have been different but they are not. And i hope that some day i can be forgiven. I hope izzy is well and her and Enzo are getting along. I hope things work out for you... I need to be happy... for me you need to be... because if you can do it then i have a shot in the dark as well... You are my best friend and with you to bitch to sometimes. I would be dead inside.... however you give me the little spark that i need to keep going.

To Heather...
I dont know what to say to you... this sounds mean... I dont know why you are being like this to me.. I've done nothing wrong i think of nothing but you. and I feel as though it never gets sent back to me. you are happy when i am not around... you want me to do everything for you and nothing for me... how do you expect me to be happy... The only thing you have given me is my Friday night Magic and now i get shit for doing that. i am a very independent person. I need space just like you do. I dont know why or even how you think half of the things you do are fair or even helping us progress into our relationship. If you want to leave me then i will not stop you. i want to be happy... and so far you have done a sub par job and trying to make me happy. But when i try to make you happy its never good enough. So here i am saying it if this what you want in my this life then i WILL NOT be apart of it. I can not be appart of it. I have been here before and i will not go back. I have had this weight on my chest. I dont deserve it. I wont take it. I dont know what to do. and i completely confused. the balls on on you... and you know I will tell you what i want i have listend to you and you have listend to me. I just dont think you care about anything i say because you are to selfish to realize that you are ruining me.

So this is the personal rant that will happen from time to time. enjoi!

Almost a year since my last one.....

well... I got a little tired of blogging and it not being read so now i just blog for the fun of it. Who i then give the site to my friends and they pass it along. Maybe in the future we can start a blog web site for people to just go through blogs and read them.... waaaaaait that seems to have been done already.


So, I am wanna get into web design and do that whole thinga ma whatzi. But with everything else in life i am not 100% sure i wanna do this. I know it looks fun i used to like doing it when i was a bit younger but the times have changed and so have I! I am dealing with the age old thing of what do i wanna do when i grow up do i wanna make the worlds next WoW Game that all know and love? Do i wanna be the next Kevin Rose? Do i wanna be a personality that people wanna listen to and want to be around? well in short yes! I wanna do it all... but can is the question i run into! Maybe i can start on youtube and start posting tips and trick on certain subjects...


As for right now my only real hobbie is Magic the gathering.... Its intresting how i have progressed and the digressed and well its time to get on the path to being a pro in that and doing maybe some web design? I think that job is just soooo much fun and i really wanna do it! anyway back to magic!

So far i have done one major tourny... Last years states event! great time wish i could have done better and had more play testing in. But as it is i have not. So i placed 92nd over all and dropped out before the last match... I have been doing limited draft on friday nights! great time LOADS of fun but inconsistant. with the exception of one person..... Alex. He always wins never fails... what i do wrong i have no idea! but i will get there!

well, As for now i will keep updates on the road to pro magic play/ web designer... keep checking in (if anyone does) and post replies to me!!